Mid-Quarter Frustration

You know what's frustrating?
Thinking you're about to finish all the papers assigned this quarter to have a professor just whip a 20-page research paper, complete with footnotes and shittons of references out of his ass. And no, it wasn't on the syllabus.

I think it's just sinking in, as I finish the paper that I *thought* was going to be the last one of the quarter. I was so excited to be able to catch up on sleep, focus on myself and my mental health, and have some time to be social, to read, to take and edit photographs for the next 4 weeks. I am starting to mourn the loss of me-time that just slipped from my grasp.

I'm disappointed, but not depressed.
I'm hoping I can keep my chin up and stay motivated long enough to complete the research and drafting of this horrendous paper.
So any well-wishes are very, very welcome.

In closing: Arabic sucks.

I was wrong to be optimistic.

Exhaustedly Optimistic

I'm feeling stressed and exhausted, but rather optimistic about things.

I've been doing pretty well lately, with not too many outbursts or breakdowns. I'm not feeling quite as emotionally exhausted as usual.

Oh right. Midterms were fine. At least the 2 of 4 that I have taken. Soooo yeah. School is...whatever. It'll be nice, though, because I have just this weekend of heavy homework, then I will have completed all the papers and things that are due this quarter. All I will have left is typical weekly reading and reflecting. Maybe I will eventually have a social life.

This quarter isn't too bad, academically, so I feel like I should be dedicating extra time to my emotional issues. What a great time to realize this, half-way through the quarter, eh? But oh well. At least I noticed it. So no more skipping therapist appointments and no more ignoring my pills.

Speaking of which, it's bedtime.
nini! :3