So What Happened To Bulletproof Weeks in Your Arms?

This week is definitely going better than last.
Which is good, because it has turned out to be hell week for a lot of other people, so I'm glad I'm stable and able to help them.

I think really the only bad part about the week has been yesterday, finding out that I don't actually have a ride back to Columbus after going to Berea to spend the weekend with Christian.
So, I spent about 2 or 3 hours at work yesterday, panicking, writing on so many different people's facebooks, emailing people, texting people, crying and feeling so sad, because if I couldn't find a ride home, there's no way I could go at all, the one weekend we'd been planning to spend together since September, and also my birthday weekend. Yes, uberfail.
BUT, the wonderful and fantastic Chris saved my ass. He's going home tp Mentor for the weekend, and agreed to pick me up from BW and take me back with him Sunday night. I am SO RELIEVED! And SO HAPPY!

Oddly enough, despite all that stress, the resolution of the problem made me in a really good mood for Arabic! I am doing fine in class, nothing like at the beginning, though the 10 page final paper (written in Arabic) is gonna be a huuuge bitch, but I still dread going. Oh well. I just push myself, and it's never as bad as I expect. Dunno why I can't just convince myself that I work hard enough that it's not horrible. Oh well.

Anyway, it's an exciting week. I've been in a good mood since Sunday. Talking really helped clear things up, and make me feel better. Hopefully it made us both feel better. I mean... Yeah, we've had out 5-minute squabbles that end in me crying and feeling bad for being a bitch, but hey, nothing's gonna get better instantaneously. It's progress, and that's all we're aiming for at the moment. We are going to spend a lot of time together this weekend (though I suspect much of that will be exhaustedly sleeping from the late nights we'll be spending watching movies and going to costume parties). But yes. I'm hopeful. Not dejected as before. And that's a huge improvement for me.

Since I'm in such a good mood, I'm feeling motivated! I've actually gotten all my homework for this week done. I'm going to do some reading for Monday's globalization class tonight. And might actually go to Dems! Haha I've been skipping so many because of the mounds of homework I had to deal with, which was actually a result of the lack of motivation. And tonight's a costume contest. Dunno if I should really participate, since my costume is a slutty Alice in Wonderland... But we'll see. Perhaps I'll throw on some shitty sunglasses and a mismatched shoe and go as "Indie-Hipster." What I'm wearing today already works. :-P

I have an Arabic report due next Thursday, a regular assignment which is due every two weeks. Perhaps I'll feel motivated to work on it tonight? I could just start writing when I think of something. Or I could write it next week and talk about everything that happened this weekend. That would work, too. We'll see. But I know I should do it now that I'm motivated, since I probably will be pretty depressed Monday and Tuesday, due to leaving Christian. But there's a chance that he might come to OSU next weekend, so hopefully I won't be *too* down.

[I can't remember if I already wrote this, but...] I got a second job. It's at a food place on campus. And even next year, though it closes late, I will be able to catch a bus that goes close to home. And Aarthi's getting me pepper spray for my birthday, so I'll be set! (Molly apparently ordered my gift today... I'm afraid.) But yes. I'm relieved to have another job. On campus is really the way to go. I also applied for a bartending position yesterday, but that's a longshot. Only time will tell. :)

Tomorrow night, Aarthi, Al, and I are going to see a live production of Rocky Horror at our favorite gay club. And we are ALL dressing up. Yes, even Aarthi! I am pumped! After the show, Al and I are going to drive back north. He'll drop me off at BW and I'll be with my L. I am very excited.

Speaking of Christian, I had a dream about him last night. FINALLY a good dream. I've had nightmares for far too long.

Ok, that was written in one of the breaks which is necessary in order to not go insane while doing nothing but cataloging for countless hours. Back to work!

My Love goes out to you all <3

Bulletproof Weeks.
Matt Nathanson.