I feel like I just hit the half-way mark.
Where the hell has the last week gone?!
I'm so torn about my time in Beirut coming to a close.
I absolutely love it here. Beirut is so amazing. And studying Arabic and also being in a place where I can practice it (despite the fact that everyone here speaks English) is great.
But I'm ready to get back to making money, not just spending it.
I'm ready to be done with school for awhile.
I'm ready to see Christian and Alyssa again.
What stinks is that I know I'll be going home to my family and having to deal with all that. I miss my sister, but I'm not fond of it.
It's so internally conflicting.
It's nice that I don't have to make a decision, that I'm for certain returning to the US on August 1st, but it doesn't help that I love it here so much and hate it there so much that it'll be so difficult. Not just to adjust to being in the States again, but to being with my family again.
I must admit, I am absolutely thrilled to be able to go spend nearly a week in PA with Christian as soon as I get home, then return home to cart Al around for his booze-filled 21st bday, but still. The rest of the situation is hard.
I am really worried that I won't have enough time.
I'm hoping it's like when I was home for a week before leaving for Lebanon, where I had a list of people I needed to see and didn't expect to see them all, yet somehow managed to do so.
But once I get home, I'll be working again.
Trying to get as many hours as possible.
Seeing lots of movies, and by lots I mean Transformers 2, Public Enemies, and Harry Potter (AS MANY TIMES AS POSSIBLE!), not to mention those people who are going to want me to take them to see them so they can get in for free...
I have people I need to see like Craig, who just got back from Japan, Trudgen, Al, and Emily, Christian, and of course, my 'lyssa.
Oh, right. And my family.
And since I don't start school until September, I'm hoping to go spend every free weekend moment with Christian and Trudgen at BW.
ALL being balanced around my work schedule!
I hope it all works out.
I have a feeling I'll be getting even less sleep than I do during the school year, but at least my brain will get a chance to rest, right?
Oh wait. I need to study Arabic so I can use this program to skip some classes and take a placement test as soon as I get back to OSU. Shit.
Oh well. I'll live. I can do it! I know I can. And even if I fail, I will have enjoyed it immensely. :)
Fuck, this upcoming school year is going to be a bitch. I need to get another job, especially since I want to visit my cousin in London during spring break and will be paying for gas to go visit Christian during the school year.
Bye bye piercings and tattoos. I really wanted that one in Latin. :-\
But I'm going to keep my chin up!
There are so many good shows coming around:
-->Perhaps mewithoutYou in Akron on August 17
-->Modest Mouse August 24 in Columbus with Christian
-->Show-hopping in Coventry on September 13 with Christian (the day before I move to Columbus)
-->Arctic Monkeys on September 28 at the Newport
-->Dinosaur Jr. October 10 at the Newport with James
-->Lewis Black October 17 in Philidelphia with Christian and Trudge (hopefully)
Plus whatever I get to see when in the UK in March!
C'est la vie :)
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