Interesting Mental/Emotional Response

Hmm.

After a night of having fun with my friends and getting drunk (for the first time since March), I'm left feeling very odd.

Some of you will say "that's called a hangover" and change web pages before you even hear what I have to say. You, my friends, are assholes.

I'm feeling very disheartened and in low spirits.

I was sober by the time everyone settled down and I went to bed. I drank multiple bottles of water. I'm tired and irritable, but that's because I did not sleep well.

I am very down today. It's like... I want everyone to be happy, but I don't want to aid in them being happy. I don't want to talk to them about their problems; I don't even really feel like conversing about mine.

I'm feeling restless, yet lethargic, and it's maddening.

I don't know why I'm upset.

It's the weekend. I got some more psychology done today. I have nothing I really need to do today. I got to see some of my best friends yesterday. I am going swimming with friends tomorrow, then going to another great friends' for a themed party, then hanging with another friend.

Where is bad?

So I ask myself the question I always do when my emotions don't align with my life: why am I feeling like this?

Today, in this instance, this is the list I've come up with:

• Maybe I am just exhausted and bitchy and worrying about where/if I'll be sleeping tonight
• Maybe I am feeling the lack of excitement that was abundant yesterday
• Maybe it is a reaction to my friends visiting for a very short time
• Maybe it is a result of an issue that presented itself last night
• Maybe it is because the thing I was looking forward to has passed
• Maybe it is because alcohol changes the way the brain functions, even if only a little
• Maybe I am PMSing
• Maybe I am just being moody
• Maybe I need affection
• Maybe I need space
• Maybe I need something to do
• Maybe I need to sleep
• Maybe I need to cry

Who knows which, if any, is the cause of this. Either way, it's unpleasant, and I'm gonna do my best to get through today and hope my mood improves tomorrow.

Here's hoping.